Weekly Wellness: What’s New?

Jessica Sturdy shares her weekly wellness series about a question triggering negative emotions, when you're not on the same path as your peers, and tapping in to what you truly want.

Hey guys! I’m back with a new ‘wellness’ post today, but first, I’ve got a little bit of an update on wellness posts on the blog moving forward. Typically, I’ve always posted these on Wednesdays (we all know I love an alliteration), but from here on out, it’s going to be a little less structured. The goal is to still publish a “Weekly Wellness” post each week, but it may or may not be on Wednesdays. (I added a Wellness category to the nav bar at the top of the site, so you can always find these types of posts right here!)

Anyway, today’s post is all sorts of random and 100% all over the place. I wrote it back in December about a simple question that was triggering some negative emotions for me at the time. It’s not necessarily a certain trending topic in the realm of “wellness,” but I tend to classify most things of the mind under the wellness umbrella. Hopefully it’s something you can relate to! xoxo JRS


Over the last few months, I’ve caught myself being triggered by the most simple question… Usually one that acquaintences and friends alike all ask… What’s new?!

As of late, my answer has been, “not much,” and for whatever reason, I have so much internal judgement and resistance around that. I’ve always been someone who’s go-go-go. On the the next, constantly on the move. If you’re not moving forward, you’re not growing, right? Right?! Actually, that’s not always the case. (At least for me, lately…)

It seems like everyone has so much change happening in their lives and mine has been a whole lot of THE SAME. My life has been fairly still and it’s been driving my Type-A personality fucking crazy. Batshit, really.

My friends are getting engaged, moving in with significant others, single friends are switching apartments, friends are getting married, friends are having babies, friends are having more babies, friends are getting promoted at work, friends are buying condos and houses, friends are getting pets. Friends are checking all of these boxes that I’m not checking right now and my ego (the crazy jumbled thoughts of my mind) is freaking the eff out that my life seems so still. (My mind actually uses the terms ‘stagnant,’ ‘stale,’ ‘stuck,’ and ‘flat-lining,’ which doesn’t help my cause. 😂)

For the first time probably ever, I’ve allowed myself to slow down since I got back from back-to-back-to-back-to-back trips in mid-October. I’ve taken a step back from traveling the last four months to recharge my batteries. (And work, too, if we’re being honest.) Sure, I go out, have fun, and do new things with friends in Chicago, but most of my days generally revolve around working, wellness, and working out. And in the winter when it’s basically a tundra in Chicago, I spend way less time outside than I would prefer.
(Read: By the nature of my work, I spend a lot of time alone in my apartment.)

Also by the nature of my job, I can’t really get promoted, either. So from the basic standpoint of working alone from home, blogging can feel like a whole lot of the same from time to time. And when you see the glossy images on Instagram of every other blogger doing exciting collaborations and partnering with so-and-so and adding another person to their team, it’s easy to start playing the comparison game with work happenings, too. (Jenny did a great post about comparison in the blogging world!)

I’ve thought about moving in Chicago, but I really love my apartment building. I’ve thought about moving cities purely for “something new,” but I actually really like Chicago. I want a dog more than anything, but I still don’t think it’s the right time for me with how much I typically travel. I’m single, not even actively seeking people to date, and just doing a whole lot of the same things that I always do. So,
“No, not much is new. Thanks for asking!”

I found myself wondering, “Why is this all of a sudden a thing for you, Jess?” Similarly to what I mentioned in this post about taking time without distractions, a lot has been coming up for me recently because it’s one of the first times that I’ve really slowed down in the last few years. If a friend would have asked me that “What’s new?” question pre-October, I would have had a bunch of funny updates about guys I was dating and stories about trips I’ve taken to fill the gap. It’s also worth noting… The end of 2016 and the beginning of 2017 were pretty crazy for me personally. With all of the crap going on with my parents*, my relationship with Hallie being rocky, and then fracturing my ankle, there was something seemingly catastrophic happening on the regular. (A literal year-long shitstorm.) Whereas now, without the excess of external chaotic happenings, things have felt a lot more still. The calm after the storm, maybe?

*Sidenote on this… I know I’ve thrown it in random posts on the blog over the last year without much detail, but it’s just not my story to tell, you know? I realized the very hard way that your parents getting divorced is actually just as big of a deal when you’re an adult. We’ll just leave it at that for now.

Back to the story at hand… I came to the realization (with a little help from my therapist 😉) that I’ve been equating feeling satisfied with settling. I’ve always been this way — never really satisfied. I have always thought in terms of bigger and better and the next step. And while that motivation can come in healthy doses, I was never really living in the present moment, and certainly not appreciating it.

She recently had me take a step back and asked if I was satisfied with my current situation… And the answer was surprisingly* yes. Well, actually, I heard both yes and no. My ego was saying no, but my heart was saying yes. (*I say ‘surprisingly’ because more often than not lately, I’ve felt out of sorts. If you’ve never heard of Saturn’s Return, look it up and then mark your calendar for shit to internally hit the fan sometime between ages 28-30.)

Truth be told, I actually really love my life. I love the flexibility of my job, I love my life here in Chicago, I love traveling as much as I’m able, I love not having to answer to anyone else, I actually love devoting so much time to working on myself and working though ‘my shit’, and I truly enjoy these seemingly simpler times after a tornado of a year.
Please note: I’m *by no means* saying that I have some perfect life… That doesn’t exist, everyone has their shit! I’ve got a whole laundry list of challenges, just like everyone else.

Without realizing it, I’ve subconsciously been putting so much pressure on myself because my life isn’t mirroring most of my peers. On the surface, I really didn’t think I was playing the comparison game, but on a deep level, I have been. And as a result, I’ve been placing a whole lot of judgement on myself. That judgement runs the gamut from my mind trying to trick me into feeling as if I’m missing out on all of life’s milestones to also wondering, “Is something wrong with me that I’m not longing for all of these life changes?!”

While at some point I definitely do want a husband, a house, a dog, and probably kids, too, I’m okay with not having those things right now, regardless of what society’s definition of “normal” is. For me, it’s been all about learning to feel satisfied with what I have, while also being eager for more.

For the life of me, I can’t remember where I heard this analogy, but if I had to guess, it was probably somewhere on The Lively Show podcast. I’m probably telling it wrong, but it goes a little something like this… Imagine you’re in a canoe. Typically, you put so much effort in rowing and moving forward, but sometimes it’s nice to take a little break and sit still in the middle of the lake and bask in the sun and your surroundings. In other words, it’s okay to slow down from time to time! Or for extended periods of time, in my case lately… (Another little diddy that my recovering Type-A personality hates hearing.)

Because I’ve felt internally satisfied in some select ways lately, my ego has been feeding me all of this bullshit about settling and not being challenged and not moving forward, etc etc. And while there are sure to be some changes in career-related things over the next year or two (that’s a story that’s still unfolding…), I’m trying my best to soak up the current season I’m in. I’ll leave you with yet another analogy I’ve been resonating with lately…
“Some seasons are for growing leaves and some seasons are for strengthening your roots.”


Anyway, I hope something in this hodgepodge of jumbled thoughts resonates on some level… Comparison in your 20’s (or 30’s), Saturn’s Return, or compassion for yourself needing to take a little breather and hit the reset button. I’ve been resisting hitting “publish” for weeks on end because I wasn’t quite sure how to reign it all in while simultaneously having so much more to say about all of the aforementioned topics, but I guess that’s just life sometimes… Messy AF and all over the place!

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  1. 2.28.18
    Elle said:

    Absolutely LOVED this post Jess! It was so needed for my life too. Been struggling with this for a while, so thank you!

    • 2.28.18
      Jessica said:

      Aw Elle! So glad you loved it. Even though this feeling is so common for women in their mid-20’s and 30’s, it’s definitely not a fun thing to grapple with when it pops up (seemingly) out of nowhere. I have to remind myself multiple times a day… “You’re on the right path and you’re exactly where you’re supposed to be.”

      thanks for always taking the time to comment, gf! xoxo

  2. 2.28.18
    Caryn said:


    such a great post. resonated with me 100%.

    • 2.28.18
      Jessica said:

      Thanks girl, I’m so very glad to hear. I had so much hesitation about posting it for some reason, but I kept telling myself “Even if this helps just one person have a better day, that’s worth it.”

      And as always, thank you for taking the time to comment! I always love hearing when things do resonate for you gals. xoxo

  3. 2.28.18
    Allison said:

    I think this is SUCH a common feeling that women in their mid twenties – thirties face. Especially in today’s world..You are not alone- thanks for the honesty, Jess!

    • 2.28.18
      Jessica said:

      Definitely! I have a number of friends (mostly that don’t live in the Midwest) that are in similar boats, too.

      Thank you for taking the time to comment, much appreciated! xx

  4. 2.28.18
    Taylor said:

    This was a great and very relatable post! Love that quote at the end about different seasons.

    Also, side note – I love these kind of long form writing posts. You are a great writer and really have such a open voice that makes the reader feel like we’re reading something from a close friend.

    Thanks again for sharing!
    xo, Taylor

    • 2.28.18
      Jessica said:

      Aw thank you, Taylor! That makes me so happy to hear. These are typically my favorite types of posts to publish, too. I have a feeling I’ll be sharing more in this style this year! xx

  5. 2.28.18

    Don’t mind me, just crying at my desk (I’m a Cancer and emotional doesn’t even begin to describe me haha). I can’t tell you how much this resonated with me. Thank you, thank you. I’ve been working through some major shit myself over the last year and a half and I’ve been trying to put my words together for the blog, but they’re jumbled and sort of scary (and I’m not usually one to shy away from super personal posts). The analogy on seasons is too good…makes me want to take some of the pressure I’ve been putting on myself to do/have it all and just embrace where I’m at.

    • 2.28.18
      Jessica said:

      I always feel like we are in similar places at almost the same time… Both physically here in Chicago and in our minds, too.

      It’s so funny you say that, I don’t normally shy away from posting personal things on the internet either, but this post was different for some odd reason… I was terrified to actually publish it! I still have no idea why.

      I totally hear you on the pressure thing… That’s all it is, really! A simple shift in perspective to just embrace our right nows.

  6. 2.28.18
    Allie said:

    This is exactly how I’ve been feeling and exactly what I needed to read. THANK YOU!

    • 2.28.18
      Jessica said:

      I’m so, so glad to hear that, Allie! Thank you for letting me know. 🙂

  7. 2.28.18
    Katie said:

    It’s so funny how life works. I randomly came upon your site, and this was the first post I read. I’ve been feeling the exact same way about just cruising along through life and wondering if that’s enough. It’s so wonderful to go to a website and read about a woman who is grappling with the same issues I am, and who can write about it so eloquently. I haven’t read any of your other posts, but I’m bookmarking right away so I can always come back to your words here (although I’ll surely follow along in the meantime). Thank you for writing words from your heart that speak so directly to others’.

    • 2.28.18
      Jessica said:

      That’s crazy! But I totally get it, I always think that kind of stuff is so meant to be. Whether you’re “stumbling upon” something on the internet, a fitness class instructor says something in class, you open your podcast app at exactly the right time, or even a stranger saying something in person… You’ll somehow find exactly what you need to hear!

      But thank you so much for your kind words! ‘Eloquent’ was not exactly how I felt about this post, but I’ll take the compliment. 🙂

      If you liked this more raw style of writing about real-life challenges, I’d definitely comb through the Wellness category. It’s where you can find more of my long-form posts like this. https://bowsandsequins.com/category/wellness/

      Thanks again for reading and for taking the time to comment! Glad you randomly found my site tonight. xoxo

      • 3.1.18
        Katie said:

        Me too! I’ll now be a regular follower, checking blogs each morning is part of my routine and I’m glad I’ll get your words every day from now on!

  8. 3.2.18
    Anna said:

    It sounds like you put emphasis on needing a man to feel complete. Maybe people in the mid-west get married early so that puts pressure on you? Maybe it’s time to move to LA?

    You’re a successful blogger with a loyal following that anyone would be jealous of! What’s new is you just had a fantastic trip to Australia! If I lived in Chicago I would hibernate for 3 months too in the winter, it’s just too cold to go out. There’s nothing to miss about not working in an office, you’re not having to spend 40 hours a week with people you don’t like and an annoying commute. Look at your fan club on instagram, you’re popular, people genuinely like you. You have a lot of friends in real life to hang out as evident by your stories. Your injury has heeled and you’re healthy.

  9. 3.3.18
    Moira said:

    I love this post! I’ve been feeling like this as well! I’m back in school (at 27) getting my second Bachelor’s Degree in Nutrition/ Dietetics, and my first one was essentially Liberal Arts, so completely different. All my friends are getting married and buying houses, so I’ve felt really left behind as well. It also really doesn’t help when people ask if I’ll have a Masters or a PhD at the end of it… But I know it’s the way to become a RD and the right path for me. Some days it’s harder to convince myself of that.

  10. 3.5.18
    Ashley said:

    As always, spot-on! I agree so much with the things you’ve said; thanks for being so transparent.

  11. 3.5.18
    Flor said:

    LOVE this post!! It is so easy to relate too, especially for women in their 20’s! Thanks for the little pick-me up!

  12. 3.5.18
    Diana said:

    This reallllly resonated with me. I use the word “stagnant” to describe how I feel in life a lot. Great insights here and it’s always so nice to remember you’re not alone. Thank you.

  13. 3.12.18
    Emily said:

    Yes yes and yes. Every time someone says what’s new. My response is nothing new. One of these days I will have something exciting to tell you. But when i really think about I too love my life